Torn between Life and Goodbye

There are times I feel like Dying. I don't notice the amount Of times I've thought of it. I Hide everything by lying. It hurts. It hurts knowing you're surrounded By people you love and yet the empty Feeling still lurks. It doesn't make sense, I wanna stop living and still wanna go on. I wanna stay here so I won't miss everything when I'm gone. I want to stay here to see my siblings grow and see my parents until their age finally show. Life is so beautiful but so cruel that it makes it sorrowful. We all have our problems and struggles, that I know. But life is starting to get hard that not even the things you like take you out from the low. Just like the ending of a series, this is my last show. But is this where I'll end it all? - --- N.V '24