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lack of humanity in general ... or is that the topic ..memoir ... Or even a biography of sorts and failed attempt at trying always reaching for so called loyalty and hope but those things don't stay here ... They resolve here instead. There's no escape here !! Comon.. use ur head ..? What have u ever gained here??? Death , suffering ,a souls endless divine torture chamber of bottom less thoughtless careless hope riding on ur shoulder for no reason but to see you ...observe you ... Watch as you fall thru the basement floor .. how is it possible I hurt so many... How is it possible everyone has forsaken me so silently ... Not a word ... You silent ... Silent ...like how my mind wants to b .. I try and try and try with everyone but no has enough strength to reach out and help ... It's unbearably sad and I hurt for everyone but ... I can only feel my own lose at this very moment ... How much exactly I'm gonna lose.. Is that a question or a statement ?? I can't say... All I know is I tried and they toke all the love away ..None left to give...and no where for me to hide.. on this street of walkers called pine ... Hours for loosing my complete mind ... I miss my animals I miss my electronics ... I miss ..u being u