TodayIsTheEnd

sadly I've had enough the controlling abusiveness of someone you love has way too heavy on my heart broken me shattered me I'm left in many pieces and it's hard to be put back together, I've tried to cry it out I've tried to anger it out and without a doubt this is the end. I thank you for the smiles and wet dreams I think everyone who has been there and I've tried to cheer me up and emotionally mend My wounds.. only to be left black and blue from the bruises that will not and shall not heal I've been beaten down I've been put down and all I've done was try to love to receive coldness and today I had enough I closed my eyes my Lord to forgive me you see I tried life is hard and for 38 years I fought the good fight used to think I was cursed now I know I'm not cursed I am the curse I heard all those around me I'm tired of seeing tears in their eyes mistrust in their voice. today I've had enough I've taken too much and I can't wake up now. no matter how much they try I'm slipping I'm sleeping away until unconsciousness I'm meeting the unknown alone naturally I've taken too much I can't wake up I've crossed the line and there's no going back I say my goodbyes with tears in my eyes because I know I won't wake upnow