to use or be used

Spinning out and spiraling, kaboom Drowning, slowly suffocating Its getting harder to breathe Count 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 Get it together, it's all in your head Full of what ifs and fuck ups Clouded love, deception always I can't breathe Its  so loud, just quiet, quiet, be fucking QUIET! Years of silencing only to be consumed by old thoughts A hand, a touch, a cry for help Run little one run, they torment us deep Escape, solitude A river of pain, torture and tears And we float Hopeful of a peace, longing.... Failure Protect her, we must keep her safe A shell of existence Cracking with each weathering storm Ash to ash a simple blow in the wind