to the boy who hurt me.

its been 3 months, and your always on my mind. i really fell in love with you, you were so kind. you complimented my insecurities, and God, i believed you. you took me out of that dark hole, i felt happy and new. I was happy, happier than I've ever been in a long time. i fell so hard for you, i didnt even realize you werent just mine. there was another woman, who was beautiful, more beautiful than I'll ever be. im so insecure again. what did you see in her that you couldnt see in me? the lover girl in me has died. I don't think I'll ever love like that again. did you mean everything you said to me, or was it just a lie. you healed clean scars just to cut through it. you ruined me. i try to hate you, but i dont, not even a little bit. i cant listen to frank ocean songs the same. it reminds me of you, which hurts like hell. thats real pain. maybe one day, I'll be able to love again like never before. and I'll never think of you again, not anymore.