to: my soulmate that isnt mine

i'm so tired of my cries as my dignity dies and im sure your tired of my lies that i dont look into your eyes im sorry for saying this but i just want to give those lips a kiss i know its wrong and selfish but i cant just make my feelings perish it feels like having a soulmate but ur dying alone on a plate you know their meant to be your date but your not meant to be their mate i wish i could have u pat my head every second i worry your the best person i have thats a guarantee all the words youve said you just make me so happy i wish i wasnt so crappy the way i dress so shaggy the way i act uncanny and yet your still my friend i wish i didnt have feelings for for i cant tend for this loneliness in my core