to love you

I think I Love you to much it's a weight, a darkness that pulls at the core of my being like a shadow it's inseparable from me moving as I move breathing as I breathe. In this love I find a quiet despair an echo of something profound yet unsettling it's not the love that poets glorify or songs celebrate . It's a love that consumes, burns , and leaves nothing but ashes of what once was . I fear this love for it's not just an emotion but a relentless force that reshapes my vary existence . To love you to much is to lose myself in the abyss of you , to dissolves I to the darkness that your absence creates . In this love there is no solace only an unending thirst that no affection can quench , each day I wrestle with the paradox of want you closer yet fearing the engulfing tide of my own emotions. To love you to much is a curse , a beautiful tragic curse that I bare silently for in this love I am both the prisoner and the jailer locked away by my hearts own unyielding grip