To do this?

Give up, don't give up. What is it I do? I thought that I should find love agian. Flirt and let life bring me a bf. But then agian I say quit. I don't know. I mean, I thought me and Evan could. I'm just not sure we both said, "Who knows?" He thought of me as a friend, but in truth, who knows. So I don't know what do I do am I to do this?