Tiredness in human form

It feels like a dream Everything I'm working so hard for , Setting my mind to Perishes like a bad dream, A nightmare of some sort I'm bawling my eyes with the hope that I'd wake up from this terror Unfortunately living has become hard This depression, anxiety and tiredness all overwhelming It is said that depression is an illness of the mind, But for me it's like a parasite slowly eating me away It's like I'm fated for misery As happiness is from a distance I can see but cannot reach Persons are often asked of their fears Funny , they all dwell on death! I'm neither afraid of death nor dying, I'm just afraid of being a miserable being with a meaningless life where I need to fight for even the scraps of bread but still reach nowhere I had hope that when flowers bloomed I would be at peace but there seems my doom awaits Spring is being enjoyed but my winter has just began The cold breeze on my face The winds' icy touch on my lips caressing my teeth Cherry blossoms losing their flowers as I'm losing my peace Running in dark wilderness, when I've never tasted happiness The seconds of excitement and lifetime of great despair and failure ? It's no longer failure, I'm feeling d