tired

I'm tired of everything I'm tired of looking up and being disappointed I'm tired of everything cuz God says that if we pray he will take our worries away and he will carry us through the storm I can't see him and I'm starting to lose faith I only wish he was true why is it I'm tired I'm tired of pretending I'm tired of sparing your feelings I'm tired of living tired mentally physically emotionally are you tired too or is it just me am I stuck in a world where I suffer the only one I'm tired maybe if I drink away the problems they would disappear with untrace maybe if I take a hit of a vape my worries can go away maybe if I do something I'll stop feeling empty everyone has left me I'm alone I'm tired and I can't keep pretending I'm not happy I'm not strong I'm tired God I'm so so tired and I can't keep on pushing I just want to sleep and sometimes I don't want to wake up because sleep is the only escape I need my imagination taking control and letting me be happy but it's never enough is what I wake up I'm still tired I'll always be tired