times up

i told myself if they do not speak to me within 10 minutes, it's truly over. I ask any god who is listening, hey, if they truly care, and they truly want me around despite my grand exit, let them come to me for any reason. in any way. if not, then I'll really let it go. I'll let all my anger and all my yearning to rest and never pick it up again. I'll even stop thinking about them for the rest of my days. I'll stop imagining they are behind me, waiting for my attention. I'll stop waiting for the day they come to apologize to me, despite my terrible actions. I won't beg, but I'll lay in limerence and wait.