time,patience..

the storms rolling in tonight. the sound of the wind continues gust across my house and shake the windows. sounds of thunder rumbling off in the distance. as my heart continues to sit heavy in my chest. my anxiety is showing in my face and my body. I look over to them for some comfort but they aren't in mood for this right now as im told. I seep into the couch in utter silence. im glued to my phone now. death scrolling to distract my intrusive thoughts and myself from crying again today. im tired of shedding tears for someone who doesn't see me anymore.. the pain is just a reminder im never worth it long term. just a temporary fix or high.. it ok. I understand.. really..—🩶