Thoughts pt. 1

This blurry vision Keeps me spinnin Feel like I'm on a tightrope Trying to fall but my bodies saying nope Doing the opposite of what I should If only I would have done what I could And I'm falling asleep to sad music Giving myself the ick And I don't understand why I feel this way Wishing someone would come and stay Tired of sitting in this house But shut down thinking about going out I feel alone in here But I'm not old enough to have a beer And I read my book aloud Trying to get rid of the cloud Because I want to be able to talk at school Don't want to be called a fool But when I speak I don't even listen Feel like my bodies in a different position And sometimes I just don't talk to people In my own head even at the steeple I'm tired of feeling alone But I'm like a dog who never gives back a bone I keep it close to me Blocking the view of anyone who tries to see And then i'll blame you For not getting a better view Because i have, to help someone But guess you would rather be done Because I reached out Did you think it was for clout Because you shut that door so fast Did i open up something from your past But the thing is you opened the door Guess you didn't expect my emotions to pour You excpected ...