Thoughts.

I'm having a down day. That's the words that they hear. If only they knew. If only it were clear. The thoughts that unravel. Tears run down my cheek. Anxiety riddled. No one sleeps. But how do you explain. You don't even know. How the thoughts, they all got there. They are tearing you down. Friends and family try to help. "It will all be okay." They say it with hope. Like it will happen some day. "Only you can do better." "It's all up to you." "If you want to be happy." "Just smile", who knew? Those words of wisdom. Those spoken with pride. "Just cheer up", they say. That's why I hide. I pretend it's okay. I pretend I am fine. Until it all comes down crashing. And I'm dying inside.