Thorned Choices

My hand quivers from the sight of you leaving I can't and won't stop you but I'm hurting Why would you even do these appalling actions I want to abhor you yet I trembled in grief I've always abominated these cases of wrongdoings Yet I can't seem to hate your entire being for doing it I don't know is it because of love and familial ties? My heart carries these heavy burden of sadness and distaste My mind can't seem to think and make right decision I try with all my will to be able to see the bigger picture To be fair and be objective enough to make actions.