This Pain Won't Heal

mom since you've passed my days haven't been the same I feel trapped in my head like a maze with no escape I try to stay strong and keep my head held high but this pain still hurts no matter how hard I try I keep drinking on this bottle to numb the pain but no matter how much I drink nothing will change I lay down drunk and numb and dread the next day because I already know I'm going to wake up no longer numb and back with with the same pain.