This is the real me

I've always dreamt of a place where I could always be free a place I could always be myself a place where I could see the real me this is me expressing myself and letting myself be real being vulnerable and showing that there's more to who I really am I live in my own world I don't like to express my emotions I show myself by tears when I'm sad let everyone else know I want their happiness to come first but in reality I crave that too I want what they have but I'm scared to admit I want it because I fear to show my weakness I have to strive to achieve to being close to being close to being the perfect daughter A good person all around , a great friend and loving family member , I don't really have too much too complain about . I speak up for the truth of things , I do have my faults and fails I admit them freely . I know I'm not perfect and I don't try to be . I'm not of the hour glass shape I'm a typical average person who dreams of the average things a woman dreams who struggles with things .