Thinking Out Loud.

Mumbling of prayers, the bending of Knees, the shy bowing at the altar, may it be received unto thee. The heart might give up, my mind may at times fail, my spirit might be broken, all in all, what I want is an eternity in you. am I a blessing? am I an abomination? for the walk I walk, maybe be termed as unworthy, sometimes worthy, do I feel disgustingly worthy? for every rise there is a fall. how high will I rise? how hard will I fall? the worries of man. will I live a fulfilling life? to its fullness? or the angel of death waits at the door. may my life be an extraordinary one, not a normal life, of laboring and then dying, sometimes we pray without knowing what we are asking. God give thee wisdom. I pray.