think

currently, at the time of starting this, it is 9:41:26 pm. that means we are 21 hours, 41 minutes, and 21 seconds in the day. i think about things before i sleep. not weird things. i think about how people would feel if i gave into my urges. i think about what people would do if i rolled up my jacket sleeves. i think about how it would be like if i were more likeable. i think about whether my friends like me or if they feel bad. i think about why she ignores me all the time. i think about whether my best friend knows that i would die for her. i think about my sister and write things about her. i think about constellations sitting hazily in the sky without me outside. i think about my purple walls. my favorite color. all of these things that i just listed are cherished to me. (yes... even the purple walls) currently, at the time i'm ending this, it is 9:46:47 pm. that means we are 21 hours, 46 minutes, and 47 seconds in the day.