These are my tears

Am in need of peace, my heart feels numb, I don't know how I feel, I'm being bullied by my own emotions, there's something I lack, lately my eyes are filled with tears, it's like I'm lost in a mist I feel like am losing way. Sometimes I wonder how I stand, am in need, in need of peace from within, I've befriended loneliness, painful wounds are those that bleed inside I can't really explain the pain. Am I thinking of future or past? I'm in of peace I hope it's not too late, I'm trying to figure out what my heart desires I quickly forgive but not forget maybe I should speak out right? but what can I say ? I don't know how to explain it myself These are my tears please care to hear!! The heart I poss beat a lot of fear and pain, it kills the joy out of me but I don't blame anyone but myself I can't figure out my heart scares So am searching for peace Pain has stocked me and found me, befriended me but what now ? am in need of peace from within PLEASE CARE TO HEAR THESE ARE MY TEARS!! Am running to you heavenly Father am seaking for solutions my soul is will to live see me smile? that's how I make my happiness trend but inside it's a different story I'm in need of peace These are my tears please care !!!!