the voice of regret

I wouldn't date my past lovers again. But I would love you again. My past loves feel like mistakes. But you weren't. What we had was the realest love I've ever experienced. I was falling too hard. I was scared of hitting the ground. If I had the chance to tun back time I would have told you. I would have shouted them. Even if it meant exploding on the ground. Instead of exploding I slowly killed myself writing those stupid poems on this stupid app so you would never find them. And then it was too late. I didn't explode but life dripped out of my veins as you moved on. And I couldn't forgive you for my own self inflicted wound. But today something changed. Today I told you that I would have done things differently. And yes I'm not shouting my feelings but I told them. to you. And yes I'm bleeding but at least now you know. And you still move on. And I quietly put bandage on my wound. And Ill move on too. one day.