"The Unspoken Struggle Within"

I want to find words to say how beautiful I am but deep down it's like my heart is aching and it would never end I try to smile and look happy as I can if I don't smile it's like I'm neglecting my friends I want to live but the motivation is not in my head Why?,why am I here? I want to be free, hello can anyone please answer me ? A flowers without soil will die A butterfly without wings can't fly an eagle that is injured can't hunt I feel like a predator everywhere I go eyes piercing through my skin and insecurities starts to flood in Am I ugly ? am I pretty? or maybe I'm too fat or maybe I'm too thin should I just give up and take it all in?