The truth deep deep down p.1

So u saw the message and read it out loud... Your afraid of who I've become now. I know your head got loud.. Maybe I'm just stressing this out wayyy too much. Little do you know... I heard my head fill with silent cries..but I don't let them out now.. I'll cry inside....but where's the shout out?? My heart rips..while you sow your life together... because what's the difference on whether I'm around or not...you never made the time...so now do u wish you had..??maybe I do still care... But my head is filling with rage.... My brain concentrates on who you used to be...trying to peice in together... I had the pure intentions..I just didn't know what to say.  You had blurred intentions...you just wanted to get the feeling out the way... You cried to yourself... And I cried out for help... But here's the difference between you and i's experience..when I cried for help...all they saw was a little white blur...they see what I've lost... Now it's flip flopped...when the world hates you... I'll love you ..and when the world loves you..