The time I wasn't myself

I don't know why it haunts My mind pictures everything as taunts I live in a different world of negativity My mind got me in captivity I can't sent me free Because of this everybody hates me Look I am sorry i can't help the way I act It's just I have a heart that's cracked Having you close kept my heart together like glue Because of that my heart misunderstood that's true I was just too scared too lose what kept me together Because for me happiness doesn't last forever I was afraid of you going away from me That's what caused my mind to take control But it only lead me to black hole I was too blinded I couldn't see When I opened my eyes all I felt was the sting of a bee All I wanna give is my apology Hoping the anger has gone and we are both friendly