the things i hate

i hate the way you let me down. i hate how you led me on. i hate how you "don't want to hurt me". i hate feeling like just a pawn. i hate how you're such a good person. i hate how you said goodbye. i hate thinking of how you made me smile. i hate more how you make me cry. i hate how i said i love you. i hate how you made me fall. but what i hate most, more than anything else, is how i really do love you, and i don't hate you, can't hate you, no matter how much i try, no matter how much you hurt me. i hate how i can't stop loving you, and how i never will hate you at all. (inspired by 10 things i hate about you)