the tears fall

I I have a frown I try and choke them down water drops that fall from my eyes I can't help but feel surprised tears fall now? but how? I've tried so hard to stomach the fact that no one has my back if I cry today does happiness have a delay who is there to wipe them away or is it just me to save the day do I really have to save myself even if I struggle to breathe will I even be able to get to my feet will I fail to calm down will I always wear a frown who will be my sunshine in this cold shivering storm who will be there to help me mourn am I just here for tears like the Neptune's oceans salty yet beautiful or like a swamp ugly and filled with stories of monsters when do the tears end