the surface

are we even there yet? after we barely scratched the surface just waiting for the memories to fade into the oblivion of memory maze. could you hear the screams? internally, when you held my arm. externally, when you were up there. eternally, every time you smile at me. i know the smile you gave me was the same smile you give to everyone i weirdly felt like it was only meant for me but how could it when it's also anyone else's? suddenly all the songs you sing they're my favourites who's the fool who cries when her roommate play your songs in the morning? me. "you've fallen to the ground if you cry over someone", i've fallen each second this is written. at night, on many walks, in a car, in a restaurant, in the shower, in my room, in the morning, to a friend, each time i see you. i've fallen greatly.