The Struggle Is Real II

Out of tabs. Go on a hunt. This time around, I haven't lasted a month. If only I could see a doctor, they would know what was the matter. Then I could b on my med. Got 2 find them every day so the demon is fed. But truth is I hurt. I can get some w just a few bucks. That's only because, I stay on top of them all. That's right I I know dates & the times. Can't wait till I can get mine. See I've been beat up, shouck up, choked out till I couldn't breath out, been slapped & mauled, went thru withdrawals of them all, been chased & maced, & I led down a long line of mis fate. I've lived through an eating disorder, exercised my body till it quit going. I've abused laxatives 4 years, I drown n my own tears. Stopped drinking alcohol cause of all the trouble it has caused. Gotten public drunkenness,, & ain't that enough? So I've been lucky 2 just stay alive. I've said 1 too many a goodbyes . Lost friends because of dope. Been at the end of my rope. Buired a husband that died by sucide, He almost killed me then beat me twice. So what n the world do I have left. All these emotions take my breath. Then Jesus appeared 2 me. HE is here w me. He's the only reason I'm alive. Thank U Lord for each day that passes by.