the spology i never got

I feel ashamed to write this story to tell you I've been waiting for about 4 years shortly its been days and weeks and months but still no apology but still no explain why you hurt me but still no answer to why you killed me inside I was left to cry alone left to pick up myself left to survive all the suffer but I still wrote this cause I am still waiting for an answer maybe an explanation maybe an apology of why you did me that wrong why you let me trust you when you knew the end why you let me expect to much when you knew you were just going to break and hurt me why did you just not leave like everyone why did you have to let me trust you bealive all your lies I don't know why I am still waiting for your unsaid words for your expected apology but I know I still deserve alteleast a little sorry