The pressure to belong

I've always had this pressure to belong the pressure to be recognized the pressure to not try too much But at the end I talk to much sometimes it's either I talk too much or too less I have to apologize for saying something because I feel like I've said too much I love talking but sometimes I have to introvert myself to feel safe My friends say they except me as I am but I feel like I'm just a burden holding them back if I meet someone I tell them about everything life has given cause I feel safe too soon and when I do I feel like I'm doing too much to keep them then I wonder should I do too much to belong or should I just belong in an environment that is meant to be mine