The painter of agony

On my canvas is a figure one that I don't remember painting All the gloomy colors comes together creating an image so beautiful it tears your heart to shreds The grass in the picture use to be green but now it's taken over by brown so dark it almost ruins the painting but yet makes it more spontaneous The cloudy sky that was painted is as gray as it can get making everything seem colorless as if bright color always appeared to be absent There are no birds to sing and no butterflies to dance just dead plants and rainy clouds I should know the work for I am the artist that created it However , I refuse to remember how I painted the picture of neverending agony