The pain I hide

The pain I hide no one understands The pain I hide no one wants to understand I walk alone in the darkest night To get my problems out of sight My friends are fake The talks they always make... I can hardly take a break Have to hide the pain for God's sake My life's a total mess Have to deal with the pain I guess Use to solve my problems with a knife I don't things will get any better Does it really have to matter Use to cut me with a blade Cause of decisions I've made Hope my heart will heal It's not a big deal Tears started getting a hobby I matter to nobody