The Orange

For the first time ever, I don't want to be in love It's something I want to keep covered And never speak of I won't think too deeply about it Because I'm scared I'll find out I'm right I'll hide it and throw a fit I'll find something you won't like I don't want you to date another girl I'm happy for you, I'll never say that I don't want you to want me in any world I'll never need to say that I don't want to taint what we have Or your mom to be right I get so mad when I make you sad I'll never back down from a fight I won't let you touch me or hug me Because I'm scared I might feel I want to run when you say you love me I feel like an orange waiting to be peeled I see everyone hug you To me, you don't even say bye There's nothing wrong with us, it's true But I still feel this pain inside I know I push you farther every day I tell myself it can't be helped It's something I can't mutter or say It might just be myself