The Most

why no matter what I do only bitched at and the worse do I get? I wish they all knew how bad all this hurts then maybe just maybe they'd quit. I just want to peacefully breath without being scared and dealing with hurt pain and anxiety. seems like they get enjoyment and pleasure from doin this to me. I want to for once feel and be free not living in fear and hating everything about life even the air I breath. I would like to get to be my kids mother again instead of them like everyone else only hating me. I try so hard but people seem to only want the worse for me. so much bs it consuming my being.