The Lingering Question

Managing to dodge people's concerns. Once again, I found myself drowning in fears. I have done it again without even realizing it. Having awareness of other people's worries, and yet, I still don't feel anything. To be back in this situation is causing turmoil within my head. How do I avoid anyone's eyesight? Do I deserve the pity I have been receiving? Thoughts swirl up again; chaos has erupted inside the mind and the heart. The lingering question that has always struck me. Why do I avoid people who care about me so much?