the last time

this is the last time. i say as I take it out this is the last time. I know this is a lie I dont want to face the truth, I dont want to face the truth that im struggling, that I need help. this is the last time. I say as I trace my thumb over its sharp edge this is the last time. i say as it cuts it cuts deeper, and deeper every single one stings it stings like a knife it stings because I know I will never be myself again this is the last time. i say as I place it back into its box this is the last time.