the father that was needed

how do u expect a 4 yr child to remember her father she just started running but was held back due to her father's death she was to young to even understand death she saw people around her cry while she could not understand a bit.. what karma was to the kid if she ever asked about her father she was just shushed and fooled around accepted she was a child but she had the right to know the truth growing older she saw her mother cry to sleep for what her mother didn't deserve i was to young to understand it and failed as a daughter cuz I didn't give her the shoulder to cry on but what could a 6 yr old even understand I blamed it on my age back than but I still do it now if asked will the place of father ever be filled I say I don't even know the requirements for it because the 4 year old does not even know if she was welcomed by her father or just accepted she doesn't know the father's love the void in her heart will never be filled and she continues living until she finds her husband loving her daughter the way she dreamed