the end ... but not really

the way to end it it all is right there in front of you the moment you been waiting for the thing you've been wishing g a upon the moment all the pain inside you inside your mind you can stop all the pain the way to do so is right there in front of you but there is something holding you back the moment you been wating for that you've been wishing for this feeling is holding you back it won't let you go it won't let you end everything it won't so you walk away and again have to deal with all the pain but you do because that one odd feeling that you can't explain will stop you time after time again