the doctor said

they said it might be cancer. I'm scared that's true but not scared for me. I'm more scared for you. the doctor said it might change me in ways they do not know because the brain is a funny thing because what you can not see we can not know so they need to do some scans and test and alone I feel so scared but again not for me but for you because its only me i love you more then me dont you fear. sickness came into my life along time ago it took my mother and nearly her life I was so scared to see this phantom came in so fast and swiftly changed out lives forever and circumstance we could not change so helpless and afraid but I seen my mother beat it so many times I am not as strong as her and I feel so ashamed I wish I was a worrier like her a soldier without a uniform only lunch money and dinner but a love I could never replace. the doctor said they are worried, and im worried too. I pray it isn't cancer. I'm so scared it's true.