The Darkness Within

You claim to know me, yet you're blind To the pain I've lived, the weight I've left behind You say I'm cheeky, speak ill of my name But do you truly know the heart that's lost in this game? I never asked to be here, to breathe this toxic air To live a life that's not mine, with no escape to share You act like you're the only one who's sick But my heart beats slow, my soul's on the brink I don't take my meds to escape the pain I'm not running from death, I'm facing the strain I've tried to leave, to end the fight But I'm still here, in this darkest night You hurt me slow, with every passing day I want to disappear, to fade away Why am I here? I never chose this fate You speak lies of me, but do you know my state?