the cuts

the pain becomes too much so you try to numb all that pain till you feel nothing at all in doing so you take that blade and you put it on your skin and press hard and cut on repeat till you don't feel that pain as the blood streams down your skin you don't care till later you do and it happens over and over and over and over again and then you use that as a coping skill instead of a better and healthier one you want to get better you truly do but at the same time you don't want to feel you are scared of what will happen so you suffer in silence you act as if everything is great but those cuts say otherwise the blood stand into your clothes the blood on you skin your cries they all say otherwise the cuts that are always there the cuts that scar the gilt and flash back that are trigger almost every time the subject is brought up and the the urges the all makes the cuts harder to get rid of