The cry of my heart

Here I stand at two cross roads To reveal or to seal. the affection within first I think reveal and be free but my mind does not agree because first time I revealed something of sort my intellect was considered short so l learnt to cover up my feelings and I was considered appealing but when I saw you and my heart jumped I knew you were sent from God but when I spoke to you and you didn't relate i thought that alone would be my fate but I tried again like a potter reshaping clay and since that day I never kept you at bay maybe it's the way your eyes shine or how ur lips are so fine And In our final day together Came my chance to say what i feel but a moments hesitation and I watched you leave How can l will to live with all my feelings in a tight seal since the chance l had slipped from me like a bird with broken wing l can no longer soar all l do is sit in this dark place And reflect on what could have Been So I make scenes In my head were we actually were So I do things to distract myself don't blame me am just trying to numb the pain I feel guilty when am done but that goes away when am numb for those three hours I feel nothing but for the next days I feel ever