The child who was never loved

I wake up I fall apart All I want is to restart This life I live in too damn hard I was just a kid when they hit "start" They called me weak Said I was a lie All I wanted was to fucking die They kept me locked up in a cage Until my heart left me this way I've always longed to be alone The abuse is really all I know Everyone around me leaves Now it's up to me to be happy As soon as I'm eighteen, I'm gone They'll never love what was always lost I'm trying my best to make it back But my hearts walls are starting to crack I feel the pain from deep within I guess I'll never truly win