the change he brought

I was always happy and had to pain but deep down my heart knows I'm never gonna be the same I look in the mirror feel like breaking it and the way I am swear to god I hating it I'm hating myself , my looks and the way I talk do nothing productive never even go out for a walk sometime I feel like staying in my room forever falling in deep slumber and wake up never I cry at night when everyones is asleep the nights are so peaceful but my wounds feels so deep I still smile tho it's not the same but surely the best way to hide my pain