the altar

once i used to stand at the altar worshipping god with pure heart not knowing about the carnage that can happen in real love i used to stand there wishing for pure things not knowing that it doesnt all have to be pure to be real i used to stand there and imagine who i'll be what will my purity look like the thing is im not pure anymore and it turns out its not so simple to really see whats good and whats bad when you acknowledge your needs touching the real world your intentions may not even be pure but they are real