That way

Why am I so akward? Why do I do the wrong things in life? Why am I so stupid in life? Why do I fuck up so damn much? Just why am I this way. Please, Lord, I need to be changed. Please universe to I need to be changed. I can't do it on my own. If I could I do so by now. I freak up so much I want to not do any more. I am not a bad person I wish to show it. Please lord and universe hear my plea for help. I mean I fool and all all the time. It's time to stop I can't freaking do this. I mean I'm hurting many people in my life. I am even just a weriedo at times. That is just the way it is. But I don't want it that way.