That reconnection–no more

Fantasies were fun till I knew the reality Yes fantasies were fun till I knew the reality The longing for reconnection that once felt like my heart's melody Gradually turned into an aching tragedy I'm fighting this battle alone though I have support What should I do? I can't even report Don't feel like sharing Need to stop caring For the best And accept it as a test To Allah, I'm leaving the rest I ain't no pest And I won't let you lower mine or my family's esteem You don't care about anything and your thoughts I don't even wanna redeem