that dumb boy I hate.

At first I admired you from afar Your strength, kindness and how goofy you were So I started talking to you Wanting someone to love And sadly you wanted the same At first everything was perfect We talked all the time Learning about each other But we never learned each others middle name Or when the other was born I tried to hold on to you To make it last Sometimes I like to think u did the same And maybe we weren't meant to be I wish you tried harder because I was But you made me feel things Good and bad You made me want to get up but you made me want to die I miss someone asking me about my day But when I think of it Did you ever really love me? Or was it all lies Ment to make life easier When we were both suffering Did I help you? Or did you help me Now we're just strangers Seeing each other in the halls Eyes glancing over and looking away Ashamed And confused I like to think you miss me I doubt it though You seem happier with your friends Even they noticed when you laughed more I did too but I noticed you got quite Everytime I came around Did you cry like I did? Or was it relief I hate you I also look for you in the crowds and remember I shouldn't So I text others ashamed That I'm still looking.