Tainted

the truth hurts, much like reality After finding out my truth, my life will never truly be the same. I wonder to myself "How can I want intimacy but be frightened by the idea?" "How can I need to be hugged but scared of being trapped or overpowered?" "How can I submit without feeling like I'm allowing myself to be taken advantage of all over again..." Already, life wasn't fair, but my truth has now managed to taint my fantasies too Am I damaged goods? Is there a way to come back from this? Would my future partner be turned off if they knew what happened to me? A lot of questions, a lot of mystery, I'm lost in the foggy woods, with no answer.