Tag of war

My life has become a tug of war. On one side, you have a positive mind. On the other side, you have the native. How can I win this war? If people keep pushing me down. I wanted to move forward and be happy without people pushing me down. So I can stand on both of my feet. How can I win this battle? When they try to take me down. I am drained with natively thought. Life always pushes me to my limit. They try to cheat the way out of things. Do there know the words they use? It will only push me to my breakpoint. I can't talk because no one listens. I am holding on to tomorrow because tomorrow is another day. Sometimes I wish I have more control over myself. So I can be moved steadily. When you push me, I won't fall—trying to hold on and keep my foot on the floor. So I won't let go. They push me with everything they have. I know I have to be strong. So I can fight another fight. I hope one day I will reach it—my happy place. People say you won't win. But I promise myself. I don't want second place. Being someone else is not easy. It is like playing the tug of war. I pulled for me. No more second-guessing me. You put doubt and don't bring hope to me. I am so much stronger just being me without you pulling me away f